Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Thank you

I have not been inspired enough to write for the past few weeks. I have been tied up, bogged down and tired. I am in that phase of life where you don’t know what you want or where you are headed. So there, I did, clearly, not know what I was doing – toggling between yes’s and no’s.
And by now one must be wondering why I would even bother writing this post when I am disheveled like this, let alone whining. But I think this is about the right time to actually take a look at the bright side of the spectrum.
That night, post midnight, I decided to go alone for a walk. The moon light was romantic, subtle and enamoring. I was thinking, I would rather keep my mind numbing spider web inside my head rather than blurt it out to some one. I was thinking, who would care, enough, in this pretentious world to even take time off and listen. I was thinking benevolence is just a concept. However, once I got back to my room, all the thinking and the feeling of not having someone to talk to was so overwhelming that I decided to break the lull. No more choking. No more dead air.

And what I saw in return was spectacular. My family offered the fall back but their health did not pave much way. That was when my mates across breadth (Mumbai to Calcutta) and length (Delhi to Chennai) laid down a path (I don’t know where would I include Bangalore and Hyderabad), offered to assist in whichever way they could. Phone calls, emails, web chats and even visits – every one was available. Fascinating. People I have known for 10 years to the ones I had just met – every one had the time; every one wanted to help. In a time when I was moody, unreasonable and snappy – I wasn’t left alone. I realized companionship; I realized a lot more actually. And now, even though I haven’t sorted everything out, I know for once that life is a game of cards and I have just played the trump card that has made the most difficult time less painful.

I am waiting for the result to manifest.

P.S. I devote this post to all my adored friends as a thank you note.


The Unstable Atom said...

Your friends are always there, never forget it. :) n friendship is very different than benevolence and hence very much helpful.. :)
I felt like buzzing you so many times, but thought you must be busy so didn't.. i guess i should have!! god bless you.. n since i'm always online you can always "bother" if you want to talk, though i'm sure your close friends must be online too, but just in case :) take care.

Sandeep D. said...

No need to knock on the door... it's open 24x7 :)

wait a minute... oh!! Great!! is it real?? I can feel the pinch... It IS REAL...

there are no walls at all. :D

Jags said...

Consider the postage stamp: its usefulness consists in the ability to stick to one thing till it gets there.. i think this says all about your perseverance and your friends..

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Hiral said...

Dear Laks,
Just something to tell you here, it been very short time period we spent together but i will always cherish and love those moments when you around to be with us. Really miss all the stupid talks like Gorkha relates to fruit & veg, khatmal relate to khamdal, running here n there after laughing on top of our voice, running on road to get rid of scorching heat n so on, all illogical non-stop laughs, Friday nights, Enjoying Sunday with mesmerizing Watermelon, Useless window shoppings, Talks about dodging all so called idiots/bastards from our life, Long Continuous Day Dreaming in idle times, boosting and motivating in negative/positive way all the time, sharing the scars of life and trying to turn them into stars...You always remain in my sweet memories dear….
In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit. ~Albert Schweitzer
Thank You…Just praying and hoping from bottom of my heart that you came out from this battle as a Survivor….Always with u n Love u Laks....